Curling eyelashes
POSTED AT 10:34 PM

kapeeshells

I curl my eyelashes now. Nothing so interesting but it's something I do practically everyday now after I've taken a bath. I curl them but I hate HATE hate not putting the mascara properly. I want each of my lashes to curl up perfectly. I hate to sound so girly. I'm no expert on make-up but I can't say I'm an amateur either. It has just been fun that's why I do it. AND, in the most wonderful of japanese principles, the perfection of a craft is addictive. I dream of buying the right tools and the best products to produce the best results. HAHA. I'm such a cheapskate tho'! Where can I buy the best make-up at the cheapest prices?

M.N. Communicate (atleast call or text) friends once a day. It really does help in getting me through the day. ^___^
Watching: The Legend
Feeling: working

I have a pimple.
POSTED AT 01:22 AM

kapeeshells

And what a pimple it is! It's a sign. Well, I think that is what it's doing in my face. It's there to make me think that I should be thinking about something else. Something that I must be avoiding, is it? Or something that I should do? Maybe I think too much. Yes. I've been avoiding some people and things that I should be meeting and doing, respectively.

I haven't found a job. Thank you very much! AND, I am a perv. No thanks to the fastest-growing and very popular book in Germany taht originated from Japan. I won't be dropping book titles, will I? Anyways, I am taking a little time off from reading P.C. but I'll jump right on those inspiring pages again soon enough. That's another thing I'm avoiding. I don't want to get "Oh! If I don't take risks now, I'll never know what it is like to really live..." and the "I need to fulfill my personal legend, starting now!" right now because I'm sort of 'wallowing' after my rejections by a couple of big BIG companies. It's alright. I just don't want to think about it...think about the "what ifs" and everything else that has come before me and those who I need to support in the next few months and forevermore.

When will get to fulfill my dreams Mr. P.C.? >__<
Feeling: thirsty

I'm sick.
POSTED AT 11:39 PM

kapeeshells

I could've slept through the whole day if not for calls of nature and hunger. My routinary "open the computer and check my mail" thing is annoying. I kept thinking I need to do something with or in the computer. Papers, the thesis, conference with groupmates, download notes, check forum replies to my posts, update update update whether soju already has episode 12 parts 3 to 10 up, etc. It's a mind-blowing day even if I got nothing to do and I have colds and headaches.

I am practically not earning right now. My businesses on the side are not giving me a single centavo. My online writing job client don't want me anymore because I usually don't pass my articles on or before the deadline. Haha. So I don't get a good remark from him nor referrals to other clients. That sucks really. I'm a crammer in real life and in dreams so I can't help it. Give me time people! T___T Anyways, I pray I can change in less than a month. I don't want to take money from my padres any longer. I haven't for almost a week now. They are actually the ones who ask me for money. That sucks too.








M.N.: Repetition comes before PERFECTION! - P.C.
Watching: Sex is Zero
Feeling: sore

poetry
POSTED AT 12:55 AM

kapeeshells

Why can't I love thee? That is the question.

When emotions push, man tend to mumble and die.
To succumb to these feelings, many tried hard to resist.
It is through these that life flows. Flows become beatings,
Not by a single hand, but through waves that ripple to thousands.

I read Tu Risa by Pablo Neruda at the LRT cart that a rode today. It was so simple and pure. It can never be pretentious. I thought to myself, "that's poetry".

I hope I can read that poem to the one who occupies my mind night and day, and whose smile, without it, I'd die.








M.N.: Sir Bong is one hell of a sweet person. (^___^)


Reading: Like the flowing river -P.C.
Watching: ISWAK 2 ep.12
Feeling: touched